April 2018.. I had a night of drinking alcohol and ended up in jail. That’s when I thought of committing suicide, falling head first off the top bunk in my cell because I had no self-control, was very selfish and thought I can do it on my own, my way! A week went by and by this time, I heard what I could have sat in prison for being innocent. In my mind, I was scared, lost, broken, sad, angry and embarrassed. I thought about falling head first twice. That’s when I thought to myself that my wife/kids, my family, my friends, etc were important to my life. I had this feeling of regret and sorrow. When I got off the bunk, I knew I couldn’t do it on my own anymore. I cried, thinking of my family. Thinking of what will happen. After I shed those tears of loneliness and fear, I got on my knees and prayed to God. I asked Him to take control of my life because I wasn’t strong enough to at that time. I prayed for Him to be my Lord and Savior and to forgive me of my sins. I told Him I believed that He was raised from the grave and confessed that He is Lord. After I prayed that prayer, something amazing happened to my train of thought. Instead of thinking about the negative side of everything, I couldn’t stop thinking of what He will do for me. I stopped cursing, I stopped getting angry. I stopped showing hatred towards myself. I felt free! Even though I was still in jail, I realized it was God who helped me through it all. Yes, I did miss my wife and my children but I knew I was going to be okay. That everything will work out according to His plan and purpose for my life. From that day forward, I touched many lives in that jail and I’m thankful for Hus blessings. I’m grateful for all He has done in my life. Knowing I’m loved and He is in control, showed me that I can plant seeds in there while I was there. He called me to be a fisherman and that’s what I did. I sat in jail for 10 months, patiently waiting for trial. I got out February 2019. Yes, I did fall back into drinking and finally realized it’s not worth it. It has been 3 months now since I’ve touched alcohol. God has been so good to me and my family. Praise God for His Grace. His mercy! Remember who He is and what He can do! I get baptized Sunday, September 29, 2019 at 11:15am in Brookings, SD. Thank you for this opportunity to share my story. I’m very blessed to be free, to be Dead to Sin and Alive in Christ!! God bless you all so much! Much love from my family to yours. Blessings be with you!

Jared Weston

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