This is my story about how life 96.5 helped me through the toughest time in my life. We got married July 2013, My husband passed away on February 12, 2017. That year that we would have celebrated our 4 year anniversary. He passed away from a Pulmonary Embolism. September 9th, 2020 I hit rock bottom. I didn’t want to live anymore. I wanted to be with Kevin. I was at a support group and a lady who led the group asked me how I was doing with the death of Kevin. I had been telling the group that I was doing ok but I wasn’t. I told her that I wasn’t dealing with it very well and I wanted to be with him. I kept saying it over and over. Finally, she said “Lori” you need to go to the hospital. I said “NO” I will be fine. She kept on saying no you need to go to the hospital. She said “Lori” I’m not asking you to go I’m telling you to go. I had to go get some stuff I told her and she told me If you are not at the hospital in 15 minutes I will come to get you or you will have a police escort you to the hospital. I went to the hospital. I was admitted to the Behavioral Health Unit that night. The psychiatrist who saw me every day said that he was not going to let me go until he knew I was ready I stayed there until the 21st. On the 21st I went to a treatment center here in Marshall MN. When I was in the treatment center I learned to listen to Christian Radio and Life 96.5 and read my Bible. One day I was listening to a Christian artist called Mathew West. He has a couple of songs out there that stuck to me. “Day One” and “Truth Be Told” were the songs that I listened to daily to remind me that when I got out of the treatment center it would be DAY ONE of the rest of my life. I stayed there for 90 days. I had kept everything that happened to Kevin inside and didn’t tell anyone not even my past and present therapists. I did this for 9 yrs. I was the Happy Lori on the outside but the Sad Lori on the inside all the time. It was hard on my family but I had come to the conclusion that I wasn’t doing it for them I was doing it for myself. I thought I didn’t have to talk to God because he already knew or why does he care. It was one Sunday that I was watching Church and I saw a slide on the screen that said if you need prayer go to the back of the room and someone would be there to pray for you or click on the Prayer request on the church website to get prayer. My pastor kept saying if you need prayer for something go to the prayer team. The devil was telling me not to do it, don’t send a prayer request nobody is going to listen. I knew I couldn’t go to the prayer team but I could send in a request. I did the opposite of what the devil wanted. I sent a prayer into the church and told the secretary what had happened and that I need more than just me praying for me. I knew I needed my church family to be praying for me. After sending that request I got many texts and phone calls telling me I could do it. I got out on the 18th of December 2020 just in time to spend Christmas with my family. I can truly say that it was truly Day One of the rest of my life. While in treatment and going to therapy I learned how to take care of myself and it’s ok to do things that everybody else doesn’t want to do. I learned lessons to help me cope with things when situations come up. I am still working on them and will always be working on them. I know that I can and will get through the hard times. While I was in treatment I knew I couldn’t do it alone. There were days when I wanted to quit. I found out who God is and that he won’t give up on me. And I didn’t, God was with me all the time. In the past, I read my Bible and knew God but after going through what I did. I know that there truly is a god. I don’t have to hide anything anymore. I can call on him when I need him. It took me to go through all this to end up seeing that God does care and he cares about me. Even through the rough times. I’m getting the help I need now and it feels amazing to know that my God loves me. I couldn’t have done it without all the support and prayers that I have gotten through the church and the community. My whole life has changed since September 2020. It took me getting help and talking to my therapist and getting it out to realize that it is ok to ask for help. There are people out there who care and God is the #1 person that will be there for me. December 18th was 2 yr. from getting out of treatment and I haven’t felt happier and healthier than I have ever been. People have noticed a change in me and that feels amazing. I no longer have to be afraid to tell people my story. I will gladly tell anyone what I went through. You never know what people are going through and how you can impact someone else’s life.
I keep thinking about these verses in the bible.
PHILIPPIANS 4:13 I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHO GIVES ME STRENGTH
MATTHEW 6:33 BUT SEEK FIRST THE KINGDOM OF GOD AND ALL THESE THINGS SHALL BE ADDED UNTO YOU.
JOHN 3:16 FOR GOD SO LOVED THE WORLD THAT HE GAVE HIS ONLY BEGOTTEN SON THAT WHOSOEVER BELIEVETH IN HIM SHOULD NOT PERISH BUT HAVE EVERLASTING LIFE.
EPHESIANS 3:20 GOD WILL DO EXCEEDINGLY, ABUNDANTLY ABOVE ALL THAT I ASK OR THINK. BECAUSE I HONOR HIM, HIS BLESSINGS WILL CHASE ME DOWN AND OVERTAKE ME. I WILL BE IN THE RIGHT PLACE AT THE RIGHT TIME. PEOPLE WILL GO OUT OF THEIR WAY TO BE GOOD TO ME I AM SURROUNDED BY GOD’S FAVOR.

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